So, this summer for school was supposed to be a complete joke. Ha......School is now NOTHING!!!!! I feel like I am living a nightmare. The only good part is that I know eventually it will end.
-I didn't expect someone to ask me to do something for them, which in my opinion went beyond what should be expected as any call of duty by a friend. But, knowing this person really needed it, I gave them the benefit of the doubt. This is adding to my stress right now in a way I can't describe.
-I still know nothing about my liver. My gut feeling tells me that all will turn out O.K. But there is still the unknown, the concept of never being able to have any more kids (Sorry about complaining, I know I already have a huge blessing with 2), and that small little chance that I could have liver cancer
-So, thought I would spend some of that unknown time looking into adoption. Can't do anything with LDS social services right now because I cannot technically prove that I have a viable life span until after my MRI in August. Any other agency I have found is right around $28,000.00 Unfortunately, I don't have that kind of cash just laying around.
-Finally, my Grandma (who I am extremely close to) is horribly ill. She has been in the hospital for a week, has hardly left her bed, cannot talk to us, and spends most of the time sleeping. Worst part, nobody knows what is wrong with her. She has had leukemia for a long time, and her Doctor figured it was just the progression of the disease. But now, the blood work is not coming back to tell us ANYTHING!!!!! Her Doctor is completely baffled! We are praying, hoping, and feeling more sorrow than we can describe for our sweet Nana. We love her so much, and it is so hard to see her not be able to do anything at all for herself (HEART WRENCHING!!!!!)
So, if you see me, and I'm not happy HAPPY, please don't be offended. I actually think I'm holding up rather nicely about 95% of the time. If you catch me some time during the other 5%, I apologize in advance. I'm completely spent. At least there's only 3 more weeks of summer semester and 1 month until my MRI.
4 comments:
Wow.
Not many other words for what you are going through.
I hope things look up soon.
(And bravo to you for holding it together 95% of the time!)
I wish there was something I could say or do to make this better, but I don't think I can... but please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you during this challenging time. Hold on tight and I hope things get better for you.
I'm SO sorry Angela! Mark had mentioned something about your grandmother being in the hospital. Having lost mine recently I know some of what you are going through. I can't imagine though the frustration of not knowing exactly why it is happening or what is wrong. Please know we are thinking of you and your family right now and are keeping you and your family in our prayers. I wish I could do more for you right now. I am having trouble right now holding my life together but I know too that it's a temporary thing and it will get better.
Don't worry, Be HAPPY!!!! Things will get better soon! I know it!
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